Ok, well maybe not Tragedy, but being in the hospital for 4 days now is taking a toll on the system! I don't like being in hospitals as it is already, and 4 days is more than this Homee's fill 0f them! I will say that the staff has been great, and they truly are looking out for all of our best interests.
The "Tragedy" part actually started last night. Capital M's blood pressure still hadn't lowered, and they ended up putting her from the Post-Partum floor back down to the Labor and Recovery floor! This meant that Baby Brooklyn would have to spend the night alone in the nursery! NOOOOO!
So then, I go home in a total emotional TRAIN WRECK state and have to find a way to hold this family and my sanity together.
I show up at the hospital this morning and I just LOST it. LOST it. Baby Brooklyn was put in an incubator to help protect her against Jaundice. Even though it was all a precautionary measure and for the best future for her, it BROKE MY HEART to see my baby girl stuck in a box!
All my future, all her entire life just flashed before my very eyes! Going from a state of holding her, and falling asleep with her in my arms to seeing her inside this box like she was a reptile exhibit at the Zoo, was intense. I was completely emotionally LOST.
As I sat there looking at my newborn daughter through the plexiglas, I thought, "it really must suck to be stuck in a box." Here is why it sucks to be a 4 day old baby stuck inside a box:
1. She has to wear this eye mask thing to protect her retinas, but she's so tiny that it doesn't even fit her properly.
2. I had to change her while she was stuck in the box. Oh yah, recession hits hard at the hospital, you now have to bring your OWN diapers, wipes, kleenix, and facecloths. Pretty cheap, huh? Bastards.
3. No naptime with Daddy, laying on his chest while you're in a box.
4. It is pretty lonely being stuck in a box as a 4 pound Preemie.
About the only good thing for her being under the lights of the incubator:
She's gonna be REALLY ready when it comes to tanning season!
Capital M had to go for Magnesium Treatment for her liver, as well as 24 hours of strict SLEEP and Bedrest! Insane, but I guess when you think about it, she's had major surgery and really does need some time for herself to recover. I'm such an emotional TrainWreck, it isn't pretty!
Another piece of Irony for today? This weekend was supposed to be our PreNatal Classes for Capital M! Ooops, too late!!!
AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!
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Your daughter is so beautiful! Now you have a story for her when she grows up that she survived living in a box :)
and you can play Wires by Athlete for her!
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